Friday, September 12, 2008

The Color of the Day

This week at school the first graders have been learning their color words.  We were asked as a staff to wear the appropriate color each day.  I gave up after three days when I realized I didn't own anything red, orange or purple.  

It was at lunch that I heard the news.  It didn't even make sense to me for the first few minutes and even after it did, I realized it was more devastating to those around me and so I toughed it out and filled in for those that needed to leave.

Pam died today.

And an entire elementary school grieved with the news.

And while I can soothe myself knowing that she's in Heaven dancing with her brother.  While I know that it's better this way than to have suffered through months of treatment to arrive at the same end.  Today, with rain pouring down, my heart aches for a woman that was a best friend to hundreds of people.

It wasn't until later, when I was welcoming a first grade class into the library that it struck me.  It was all I could do to keep myself together and read to the kids.

Nearly every teacher in the building and seven classrooms of students, including Pam's class, were all wearing black.

Today is a very black day indeed.


Mig said...


I am so sorry to hear this very sad news.

I am thinking of Pam and You.

stacy said...

thinking of you and hurting for you. i am so sorry....i keep trying to type something...but i don't have the right words. please know i love you and i am praying you are comforted.

Sarah Louise said...

oh honey. I just came over and read the past coupla posts--it's been a lot lately.

Prayers here.

Anonymous said...

I'm positive that there must be first graders in heaven that need to be taught, as there is no other reason that God would take such a great teacher from a world like ours. Pam was definately one of kindest people I'lve ever known. Hang in there! Jules

jenny said...

Oh Amy, I'm so sorry to hear about Pam. Am thinking of you.

Hillary said...

Amy, my heart aches for you. Cancer is such a terrible, terrible disease that has taken far too many wonderful people. I hate it, I hate it, I HATE it.

I'm so sorry to hear about Pam. Praying for you and all those who knew her.

Jennifer said...

I am just getting caught up, but wish you peace & comfort during this very difficult time!!!