I've been praying for God to give me an answer and today He did.
The house is not to be ours. At least not right now.
The homeowners are in way over their heads and are going to have to go through the process of foreclosure. It's a long process, but perhaps months down the road, if we're still interested, there might be another window for us to express an interest.
In the meantime, I'm taking a break from the search. I'm emptying my house of the boxes we've collected and I am going to take some of the saved money and pay off my car.
But I know God has a great plan for us, and I know that it is better than we can imagine.
I know this.
But for a few moments tonight, when I am normally praying that God would help me to know what to do with this house, I just might cry. But only for a moment. Only for a moment.